I didn’t wanna admit to this bc, well, it’s embarrassing. But I feel like sharing this might make some of you feel better about a recent mishap. I recently bought a mustang, maybe in like August. Brand (2015) new, white Mustang. Premium interior, cream & black leather seats, touch screen – the works, ok? I saved for what felt like an eternity for a down payment and bought it. It was my pride and joy. I wouldn’t let anyone eat or drink in it. I was a obsessed, to say the least.
Somewhere around October – 2 months into my new life as a glamorous mustang owner, I relied too heavily on that stupid backup camera and didn’t check my blind spot. I scuffed my sisters Honda parked next to me in the driveway.
My heart shattered. I shed actual tears. “I can’t have anything nice,” I scolded myself, “Why me, God? Why can’t I catch a break?”
I was angry at myself and my situation. I feel like I always have the worst luck.
On my way to work that same morning, traffic slowed to a stop, because I take I35 everyday 🙄 and on the side of the road was a man.
The man reminded me a lot of my great grandpa. Elderly, Hispanic man, standing with his hands on his hips walking around his old beat up Chevy that I’m sure had a lot wrong with it. I could see he was in distress. He was on the phone, presumably calling a towing service or maybe a family member to come help him out.
And in that moment, I realized how truly blessed I am. I was angry about a scuff on my brand new mustang – my mustang that doesn’t have any mechanical issues. I immediately felt like an ungrateful brat.
My message isn’t to always remember that someone else may have it worse. It’s simply to count your blessings.
Be happy you have a nice car that runs fine. Be grateful you have an iPhone to shatter. And most importantly, don’t lose sight of the non-material things – like your relationships and your friends and family.
I made a handful of resolutions for the new year, and one of them is to count my blessings.
I can make this blog about the time I got a text from my boyfriend’s phone in the middle of the night that wasn’t him. I can make it about the time I received screenshots from a guy I was seeing’s girlfriend with details about their sex life. Or the time I broke up with a guy via text message and his EX replied to my message.
Nothing is worse than thinking you’re IT and finding out you’re just a “side piece.” I’ve dated cheaters – habitual and non-habitual. It SUCKS either way.
I’m realizing that this whole cheating thing didn’t just happen to me. In fact, it happens so often (to men and women) it HURTS to talk about.
But I want to know WHY people do this and maybe, how to avoid it. So I talked to roughly 15 people (men and women) who have either cheated or been cheated on. Here’s how it went:
(BTW, every name in this blog has been changed because, well, who would want to be associated with this blog?)
“I was getting a lot of attention that I wasn’t used to.”- Sarah, 26
“I’ve cheated on almost all of my boy friends… Now that I’m older I realize I was totally out of line and disrespectful to hurt someone like that. Especially when my most recent ex-boyfriend started talking to other girls behind my back.” – Evelyn, 22
“I never saw it as cheating when I was doing it, but when it started happening to me with the same guy… I realized that it IS cheating.” – Alyssa, 24
“She left me and had a baby with him.” – Jordan, 24
“Our relationship did get better after things evened out.” – Russel, 21
“It’s ironic because she told me if I ever gave her an STD, she would slit my tires. We were starting to get serious when I started getting this burning sensation…. When I told her about it, she told me that she needed to inform two other people.” – Raul, 25
“I found out he cheated and I thought, ‘Well you wanna play that game? So can I.’” – Jennifer, 24
“He had been dating her for about a month before we broke up, while he was living in my home, where I paid all the bills, and bought all the food.” – Emily, 23
Food for thought:
Of the people who agreed to talk to me, 60% were women, 40% were men.
All of them have been cheated on, 80% have cheated, and 20% have never cheated.
More men were caught cheating, while women usually get away with it.
2 cheated – after learning their partners cheated.
3 said after it happened to them, they wouldn’t do it again.
Of those who have cheated, they usually did it multiple times.
Why did you cheat?
“My boyfriend was timid and didn’t try anything with me. So I hung out with his friend who was very flirty and very touchy and it just happened.” – Sarah, 26
“I was never in love and I was dating too nice of guys. They couldn’t keep up with my partying ways at that time so I moved on mentally without wanting to leave the relationship.” – Evelyn, 21
“I was really insecure about myself and sought other people’s acceptance to boost my self-esteem. No single person could have given me what I needed to stay faithful.” – Alyssa, 24
“I honestly don’t remember why I cheated, I just remember I liked the other girl more and had more similar interests with her.” – Jordan, 24
“I think she cheated because we started our relationship too soon after her and her ex had broken up. Then I cheated out of spite.” – Russel, 21
Do you think it could’ve been avoided? Cheating and/or being cheated on?
“Nope, nothing. I was a great girlfriend to him and gave him everything I had. I thought we were doing great. He had me fooled. And no for my ex’s also, I was mentally not in it.” – Evelyn, 22
“There is nothing you can do to stop someone who is struggling with their own issues.” – Alyssa, 24
“I could’ve been a better lover. I was too nice.” – Raul, 25
“I honestly think he cheated because he didn’t really get a lot of attention from girls and when girls were willing to show him attention he flew with it.” – Jennifer, 24
How did it affect the relationship?
“It was essentially the final straw. He broke up with me over Facebook messenger.” – Alyssa, 24
“We stayed in an open relationship for a few more weeks. And it just confused me and made me paranoid so we went separate ways.” – Raul, 25
“She did it first, I did out of spite. It helped me give us another chance.” – Russel, 21
“It caused me to stay in relationship that wasn’t right for me. It didn’t make me fight with my boyfriend more or anything, but by finding someone else to satisfy the parts of my boyfriend that were “missing,” I was able to sort of…power through.” – Alyssa, 24
“I wondered if I wasn’t pretty enough or lacking something he was trying to find in someone else.” – Carissa, 21
“Other issues led up to that point [breakup] obviously from my insecurities and such things but ultimately it was the cheating.” – Emily, 23
“We broke up and I continued to date the girl I left her for.” – Jordan, 24
Does social media have an impact on cheating?
“FUCK YES” – Jennifer, 24
“It definitely helps… but it doesn’t matter. All the girls he talked to (that I know of) he met at work.” – Evelyn, 22
“I think social media opens the door of ambiguity when it comes to cheating. You post all these pictures of yourself and what you’re up to and you get someone saying that you’re beautiful or you look great or you’re funny or whatever…and you begin to think that it’s okay because that’s just what people do. So when someone flirts with you in person, you are more accepting of it. It’s like being desensitized to cheating. Because if I wasn’t on social media and not used to being flirted with by people all the time online, I would be more likely to be like ‘WAIT NO’ if someone did it to me in person.” – Alyssa, 24
“Now social media plays a major role in cheating. Snapchat, twitter, etc. I had a guy tell me he would rather me destroy his phone than release it to his wife because he had been messaging other girls.” – Russel, 21
“I think social media makes it easier because it’s easier to connect with others. But at the same time a lot of people get busted through social media.” – Raul, 25
A few recurring themes I noticed…
Alcohol makes you tell the truth. (And forget to lock your phone.)
Women cheat on “nice guys.”
Men and women cheat out of spite to get back at someone
Social media is an enabler
Just about everyone believes that monogamy is realistic!
A majority of couples try to make things work afterwards.
Most of them weren’t able to, though.
Some say having one partner isn’t natural and that, like animals, humans have natural instincts to have more than one mate. What is your opinion?
“Penguins mate for life so I don’t want to hear that shit! I think that we are always searching for our other half and maybe I am just a hopeless romantic but once I find my other half, I don’t want to let them go or keep looking for someone else.” – Sarah, 26
“I think if two people are in love, they will make it work naturally.” – Evelyn, 22
“Cheating happens a lot, but I think that ultimately we’re all searching for that one person who satisfies all of our needs but sometimes our feelings get in the way and we are too stubborn to quit a bad relationship, so we cheat and do ridiculous things to try to make it work because we pride ourselves in our loyalty, etc. We ARE animals, sure. But we’re much more complex psychologically than other animals and we have the ability to desire one mate.” – Alyssa, 24
“If you connect with the right person I don’t think you’ll ever need another mate.” – Jordan, 24
“It’s in our nature to find others attractive. It just takes mental strength to say no.” – Raul, 25
“Disagree. Yeah we may have to do some searching before we find “the one” but once we find it we aren’t worried about anyone else.” – Russel, 21
And a few other quotes I want to include, just because:
“I just think she enjoyed the attention of other guys. She had a habit of cheating.” – Jordan, 24
“Take a break from all social media during the beginning of the relationship to build each other’s trust.” – Russel, 21
“There were qualities in this guy that I couldn’t live with. He was funny and smart and charismatic, but he wasn’t driven to do anything with his life. So I found myself reaching out to guys who WERE driven.” – Alyssa, 24
“Growing up girls are told ‘That guy’s going to break your heart, that guy’s going to break your heart,’ so it’s like y’all are a little more prepared for heartbreak.” – Raul, 25
“Most women cheat with married men because they both have something to lose.” – Rachel, 21
The facts remain that:
Women find out EVERYTHING, while men only find out some things.
My mom had a point when she’d ask, “Why do young girls like to eat shit?”
Nice guys finish last.
Pretty much everyone (men and women) believes cheating can be physical and emotional.
Chronic cheaters are a real thing – steer clear.
The verdict is that… If someone cheats on you, it’s usually not your fault (unless you cheated first… then it probably could’ve been avoided.) If he or she cheats on you and you decide to take him or her back, your chances of being cheated on again increase by 98% (I’m making this up but it seems reasonable, right?) Anyway, idk if this helped you or just made you hate the opposite sex even more… I hope it did both, tbh.
I shove the box back underneath the bed, and jump back under the covers and listen. A long slow creak and the click of a doorknob. Slow heavy footsteps, coming my way. I hear a hand on the doorknob. He twists it slowly. I bury my face in the pillow pretending to be asleep. Continue reading “Chapter 6”→
In 2015 I turned 21. I quit sneaking into bars and arguing with bouncers about my address. In 2015 I graduated college. I quit calling myself a student and writing essays for money. In 2015 I got a real job. I quit sleeping ’till 2pm everyday. Continue reading “5 Things You Should Leave in 2015”→
My heart aches as I write this. Because I know that one day my sisters will feel the same pain I do, if they haven’t already. I remember the first time I was called a slut. Continue reading “Shame on you”→
There is no way for me to write this post without seeming like a total B word. I’m not full of myself, I swear. In fact, I’m constantly over-analyzing my face and my ass, thinking of ways to make myself less ugly. Continue reading “She’s Not Into You”→
Ok, maybe this only applies to me. If so, I’m really embarrassed and I might delete this post. Or maybe it applies to everyone. Guys and girls. I’ve noticed that all of the completely pointless and non sense-making arguments I’ve had were when alcohol had been a contributing factor… Heads up, a lot of these arguments end in me crying.
I’m not drunk. When I have this argument, I’m usually noticeably intoxicated. And it’s usually with my dad or my boyfriend. “Sammie, you’re drunk. Be quiet.” I’ll then go on to cry and say that I’m not drunk and wonder why everyone always thinks I’m drunk when I’m actually not. Real tears y’all.
You lost my keys. I had this one recently. I blamed David (bf) for losing my keys while we were floating the Brazos river. I cried, again. And threatened to call an Uber because I couldn’t bear the thought of staying the night with him. Low and behold they keys were on my dresser. Facepalm* Idk why this guy tolerates my drunkenness.
I need a sandwich and there’s no bread. After a fun and booze-filled night, my high school friend, Morgan, and I sneaked back into my room and I got the late night munchies. “Will you go make me a sandwich?” I ask. I’m not sure why, but she agreed. When she returned empty handed, I seriously cried one of those long ugly cries that babies do. “There’s no more bread.” HOW CAN WE BE OUT OF BREAD?!
I’m leaving. I was on vacation with 3 girlfriends, my boyfriend and one of his friends. We were driving back to the beach house we were staying in and my friend, casually commented about how I had been all over my boyfriend all night. Ha, all hell broke loose. How dare she? What was she trying to say? What kind of friend would say something like that? Just for that, I’m booking a flight back home. Forget all of you. How rude. I’ll just leave. I was seriously on my phone trying to book a flight back home. But I couldn’t figure out how to purchase the ticket, given my current state. We all laugh about it now.
That’s my shirt. I actually have this argument sober too. At one point, I lived with 4 girls who wore my size. So this was an issue. I’ve seriously been scrolling down my Instagram feed and stopped to comment on my sister’s pic, “Um, that’s my shirt.” Then I’ll proceed to type a long, confusing text about how “tHas my shirt dont u wear IT agian UGH!!”
*If you are my grandma or boss, this is purely for entertainment. I don’t drink, nor have I ever had any of these arguments.
I like talking relationships. I really wanted to write something that could help people better their relationships. This blog started out as a kind of “how-to” on making relationships last. But I quickly realized that this is not my area of expertise. My area of expertise actually happens to be the opposite. Some of this is knowledge from personal experience and some of it is stuff I’ve heard from my girlfriends. So here it is, ladies and gentlemen. How to lose a guy in 10 ways.
Stalk. Snoop. This is number one for a reason. Going through your guy’s phone or emails or whatever is going to end in one of two ways:
One, you’re going to find something you don’t like. Maybe you’ll find out that he’s been cheating on you or that he’s been lying about where he is because he doesn’t want you to get mad, which you will. You’ll find SOMETHING. I can almost guarantee it.
Two, he’ll catch you in the act. That’s right, your guy is gonna wake up while you’re creeping through his Facebook messages and deleting numbers of girls you don’t like -AND HE’S GONNA FLIP SHIT. Don’t do it. If you feel like you need to go through his messages, why are you even dating the guy?
Not be domestic. This is so sad and I wish it weren’t even a thing. But unfortunately men want their women to cook and clean.. most do, anyway. Trust me, I’m far from domestic. I hate cleaning and I can only make tacos and spaghetti. I only recently mastered the art of breakfast tacos. I’m 21 and I still rely on my mom to cook for me. I’ll probably be single forever. Some women luck out though. My grandma did. My grandpa does these things for her. I know, right? A man who cooks and cleans? Where can I get one?…
Dislike his mother. This is especially true in Hispanic men. For some reason these guys are total mama’s boys and just can’t seem to let go. They trust their mother’s judgment. So if you’re intimidated when you meet a guy’s mom… YOU SHOULD BE. Kiss ass, but be discreet. And don’t be too lovey dovey with your beau in front of her. He might not care, but she probably does. Depending on how serious you guys are, his mom’s opinion might matter more than yours.
Get too close too fast. Guys are weird in this way. They freak out at the slightest hint of an actual relationship. If he comes home from work and you’re already there hanging out with his sister, it might make him a little nervous. Be careful around his friends, for a different reason. In my experience, a guy doesn’t care for you to hang out with his friends without him. It kinda breaks some sort of guy code.
Call/text constantly. I’m guilty of this, but I’m working on it. Who am I kidding? No I’m not. But really. It’s not attractive to blow up your guy’s phone. It makes you seem needy and dependent. Do your own thing, hang out with girlfriends. It’ll make him appreciate his time with you.
Play hard to get. This is the opposite of #5. While guys might not want you to be too available to him, he also probably won’t appreciate you purposely ignoring him and making him feel unimportant. Don’t play games! If you like him let it be known! Just don’t throw yourself at him.
Be jealous. This goes both ways. No one wants a boyfriend or girlfriend who is overly jealous. A little jealous is ok. It’s healthy. It means you care. But don’t question him about a girl who followed him on Instagram or show up to his job to check on him because you hate that pretty girl he works with. It makes you seem crazy. And maybe you are, but no one has to know that.
Let yourself go. For all things superficial and shallow, don’t let yourself go. He’s probably not gonna dump you and say “It’s because you got fat.” But he might lose interest and say “I’m just not feeling it anymore.” And it may or may not be because you quit wearing makeup and started wearing sweats.
Compare him. This is so huge. I should move it to #2 but I’m too lazy. DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES compare him to your ex.. or anyone else, for that matter. It’s insulting. Don’t be paranoid because your last boyfriend cheated on you. It’s not his fault. Let it go. If you’re still not over it, maybe you’re not ready to date just yet. No one wants to be held accountable for someone else’s wrong doing.
Be a diva. He’s a boyfriend not an ATM. Don’t set your expectations too high when it comes to gifts and dates. Unless you’re dating Bill Gates or Warren Buffet, be considerate. And ladies, it’s OK to pick up the tab every once in a while. He’ll appreciate when you do, unless he’s one of those super old fashioned guys who insist on paying every time. In which case, I’d probably let him.
That’s all I got. There’s a ton of other ways to lose a guy, I’m sure of it. But it was actually hard for me to come up with these 10. I really wanted ten, because, well. If you clicked on this link, you know why.
I remember being asked in kindergarten “What do you wanna be when you grow up?” I said a teacher. Because it was a teacher who asked me. I think it was middle school when I fell in love with Harry Potter and decided that I should be a best-selling novelist and write fiction books about whatever I was into at the time. Then in high school I decided that wasn’t realistic enough, so I would settle on being a journalist or news reporter. Not once did I say, “You know, it would be cool to tweet for a living.” or “Hey! I love Facebook, I wonder if I can get paid to post statuses.” But that’s what I’m doing. I’m 21, a college graduate. I got my BA in Journalism from the University of North Texas and I got offered a job just a month after graduation. Essentially, I’m the social media voice for the company that I work for. And I love it.
I’m Generation Y. I’m a millenial. I am who every company is beginning to target. Banks, credit unions, restaurants, fast food. They want me, they want us. So here I am, tweeting and posting on social media, something my superiors aren’t fond of, for a living. My job is to create engaging content that gets the company attention on social media… targeting Gen Y. This is easy since a majority of users are Gen Y. I don’t have any specific guidelines to abide by, in fact, I created some guidelines myself. Most of my job is entirely up to me.
I’m not sure what my goal is on here yet. Perhaps I’ll blog advice on social media and gaining followers. Perhaps I’ll use this as a means of advice or inspiration. Who knows? But I’ll be back.